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don't expect much art or anything but i am back and here to let you all know i've started a discord server for those of you who have watched me, or may know me from susan's streams and what not. hope you can join!! for those i've lost contact with i'd like to sincerely apologize. <333
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hey there everyone, just wanted to check in and let you all know that i'm okay. i'm not coming back to deviantart but for those of you who want to talk with me, i've started a discord server including me, suzie (chinjireta), and yuki povertygodz, hope to see you guys there. 


discord.gg/4hmVCy
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hey y'all

just wanted to let everyone know that i'm officially done with this account and it's original community. thank you all for the love and support you have gave me.

i hate to sound like i know everything because i don't. i mean i'm 16 for crying out loud.. buuuuut...

i want you all to know that whatever your passion is, (assuming it's art) persue it. but know that sometimes you may have to sacrifice your dream to go another direction and persue other things.

in my childhood i wanted nothing but to be a race car driver, racing has been my whole life. but racing is expensive, it takes blood, sweat, and tears to work your way to the top.

my family has always struggled financially, thus i never got to persue this dream.

but with that i've found my love for art, drawing, painting, crafting (im a diy bitch), trying to be good at whatever i do. i'm not perfect, but i'm better than i probably give myself credit for.

i don't doubt that you all have hated your art before but know that even just by drawing alone, whether it's in ms paint, or some high tech program and you don't approve of your own art??

approve of it.

because you ARE better than you give yourself credit for. never stop grinding because practice makes perfect..

there isn't really a point to this journal entry. it's mainly for those who may have wondered what happened to me or this account.

i'm moving on with my life. i've found my soulmate, natalie, and i love her more than i knew i could love someone..

i'm still struggling heavily with depression and anxiety. but with her and even in the past a lot of you guys, i've gotten better.

so i guess the point of this journal entry is

thank you all, i enjoyed my time on this website. i really did. 

but i can't say i'll miss it, as it definitely wasn't the best thing for me. lmao.

take it easy you guys, i won't be deactivating this account, so comment as you wish, maybe one day i'll hop on and read them. i try to reply to every comment.

thank you. 

-shane mundy
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so i have no fucking clue how many of you still watch this sorry ass account
but to those who do (why do you)

this is by no means asking for your pity or shit but if i dont type it out i may literally die

i left this account cause yes
i have depression, anxiety, and (sometimes crippling) ocd

i have no want to draw digital art anymore cause lets face it
it was awful lol
i dont even care anymore i hardly tried on the shit

i feel like ive typed this out before on here but heres the jist

in october of last year all my irl friends ganged up on me because earlier that year a groupchat was made shit talking a girl in our friend group
who later became my girlfriend
they then told her about the chat and she broke up with me (still fucks me up)
then they left too
so i lost all my friends
then im pretty sure shit about me was spread through the school
so i started being homeschooled (still am rn)
then my cousin who was my best friend of 15 years (literally my entire life)
we've now drifted apart

i got back with an ex of mine recently 
she'd been hella toxic during the relationship (never saying i love you back even when i would sometimes purposely say it like once a day to see if that helped, and just giving one word answers and shit)
she just dumped me and wrote a paragraph about why i should forget she exists and ended on a note saying "have fun playing with race cars" which i've dealt with my entire life just because i /collect/ NASCAR diecasts and shit

now my body feels numb
i wouldn't care if i vanished

somebody please help me
i've lost my life
i've lost myself
i have no idea what i'm even doing anymore
i have no friends 
or purpose

please someone just actually care about me

i just want someone who when they see me come online their face lights up but that'll never happen
can't do anything right
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